Theorist

you ask me to accept you

        what you are telling me

that presupposes a denial of

        what came before

asking me to blindly accept you

        what you are saying

asking me to admit

         I am powerless before

to release my tenuous hold on

        what I’ve come to believe

on which I retain such a tenuous grip

so that you may share the fear

of being powerless before

decisions were made

footage exists

records show

that I either erode my 
working world view that

The System is fucked

and my words don’t build anything

or restore anything broken

and you are so full

that you want to share

the wealth that you pay to have me

powerless on my knees

you would have

you and I

safe
don’t you feel like cryin’

man made is

grieving

dissemble

recombobulate

 now.

decisions were made

footage exists

records show

 bear in mind
remember

  be careful, Witness

  push your narrative

  push your book    

      in my face

present your findings

 offer a present

  hieroglyphs
bat them around

 arrange them in order

 offer a present

your blood & sanity

 (no, your eyes are killing you)

    like your marbles

 searching for the door